I really don’t understand life sometim…all the time.

It’s just one of those things I’d rather not think about. When I think about it too much it just gets depressing, therefore Im choosing to ignore it.

I’m sitting in my jeep and I hear a nasty rumbling rough car sound. So I think to myself, I really hope that isn’t Lola. I get out look to my left and notice this vehicle next to me still running, sounding… Well rough.

Ahhhhh!!! I just want to know!!

…..I just feel numb. No clue why, but it’s strange. I’m here and aware, but lack thought. Which I used to never be able to stop my brain from spinning. Except for lately I can’t seem to get it to go.
This is all very strange to me.